Weak.
2012. április 29. | 4/29/2012 | 0Comment
I never thought i'm "extrapretty","superslim" or anything like that. Not even said it.
I know i'm not that "wow! look at her! she's so pretty!"- girl & i don't know if i ever will be like that. But at least i'm trying... Trying to do something against my skin, my weight, all in all, my not too pretty part...
I know, it won't be easy, & there will be people who won't believe in me as well. I never thought all my "muffintops" will disappear in a fortnights time, but if i believe in myself i know i can do it.
...And i'm here, i can see myself improving. Now i don't need to eat much food all day, except the evenings when my tummy often feels hungry so i have to get some snacks. I just need a little bit more control above my body & i know i'll succeed.
And after it, when those unnecessary 5 kilograms ceased to exist, i can stop torturing myself. Because it hurts. Not just physically, but mentally...
...when somebody says to you: "Ahh! She thinks so pretty & she just doesn't wanna try that dress on 'coz it would turn out she isn't that beautiful!" how would you feel, when you NEVER thought you are beautiful, moreover you think the EXACT opposite?....
[ps.: I never EVER thought i will have to write something like this...i hoped...]
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