You know, I accepted it. I'm way too tired to try to make them understand/accept what I am...


I remember a couple of weeks ago I showed them a song. It's about a girl who has a bad day & everybody wants her to be perfect, but she's the complete opposite kind of person. There's a line: "You want a perfect girl, but I'm not what you expect." So I showed this track to mom & I said my new favorite song. She was surprised. She asked me why while i pointed out the line above and she asked who said this.

Now I know the answer. Even if they haven't said I know they think it. The only thing I can feel this place is hate. They hate me. I thought family is for encourage,support you & to give you love. I don't feel it.

Last week we had our autumn holiday & the only thing i could hear: you are a piece of shit, you worth nothing etc. That would be the support?


I'm just curious when will i get enough & shout in their faces... 'Cause, seriously, this is getting more and more horrible.

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