I definitely wanted to publish something lot happier but I can't help it I must write it out.

The past weeks I've been feeling so miserable, that I think even a monster has happier facial expressions than me. These days/weeks definitely shouldn't have this bad impact on me. There have been a couple unfortunate things going on but that's only a couple & not the end of the world, nor it is bad for me.

Then, i don't know why I feel this depressed.

Maybe the glass is getting fuller and fuller. Maybe I've taken up so enough. Maybe... no, for sure I'd only need a good cry and the clouds would go away from my heart.
The problem is nothing seems to cross the line. I tried to watch Spudgy's adoption, listened every kind of sad soundtracks and this time nothing works. Did I become stone hearted?

Everything is just piling up and I can only hope I will be able to survive it until my exam ends.
My final exams' oral part is on Tuesday. I'm studying harder than I ever did through my high school years. Yet, I feel so supportless. I feel I'd be the worst person on the planet.

I literally feel like my heart would be breaking.

On another note: I feel rather excited than scared because of the exams. Earlier this week I was scrolling on facebook, when I saw the other classes posing with their certificates. I was jealous but I was imagining that freedom they have now more. I craved/ crave that feeling so much. However that feeling can be reached only if I finally get over this whole procedure.

Our class will be the last to do the oral exam. There's slightly a bit more then one day before it starts. I'm anticipating & I wish the best for all of us! Fighting!

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